DAY... who gives a shit

I forgive my self, that I have allowed and accepted my self to...
-have remained in the past to dwell and drown in the past memories of me being young and my brother taking sexual advantage of me when we were kids and we did not know what could this act lead to.
-have felt enormous HATRED towards him until now, and for that reason to have CURSED him so even today he is unable to reach his dreams and remain unemployed and HATING himself.
-have therefore have created a dark and evil entity because I felt responsible for both mine and my brother's errors and mistakes and
-to have accepted to let this entity feed of my living energy when I see it in my sleep or OBE's or any form of subconscious mind experience.
-to have let this entity to take the best of me and therefore feeding it with my fear and sexual sickness that I have developed shown in that need to be dominated during sleep by different succubus entities.
-to have let it torture me and attach it self to my spiritual light body and fill it with dead thoughts of pain and suffering.
-to have let this fear take over me to that extend that I would actually feel great pain within my right lower part of the back both here and in my spiritual body.
-to have fear before I go to sleep, fear of calling this entity out in my dreams and feeling its presents yet again and again, to have a negative impact on my thoughts and experiences during my sleep.
-to have connected my early childhood errors caused by curious interests that all children share and need to fulfill with new experiences.
-to have been silent within my self and out of my self and not have shared this information with any one at all, making it even more problematic as my thought of it became more and more powerful.
-to therefore have created a number of dark thoughts and feelings inside my heart mind and in this way I have manifested a new creature to reside within me and not let me be free and pure as I should be.
-to have feared this non real thing that used to scare me extensively and to have had me wake up all shocked   and shivering in sweat.
-to have lived in this way of  constant inner fear for so long and in that way to not have lived life as i should have had.

I DO NOT ACCEPT TO LET ALL OF THIS BE A PART OF MY EXISTENCE ANY LONGER

I AM THE LIGHT DESIGN
I AM PURE
I AM REAL
I AM GOD
I AM LIFE
I AM CREATION
I AM DEATH
I AM PERFECTION
I AM ME
I AM YOU
YOU ARE ME
I AM ALL
I AM ONE
WE ARE ALL ONE

I dedicate my self to live in such a way that I don't let any of the past mistakes dictate the way I act and live.
I dedicate my self to live life as I feel I should and not live life in fear and doubts and hatred and shadows and pain and anger and non satisfaction.

I commit myself to be the best I can and live my life in a way that is best for all living organisms.

I am new to this so please correct me if there is a need for my text to be corrected.

HATE AND PAIN

OK, so I really did not want to write this down But it left me no choice. At least now I know that I can ask someone for assistance in getting this thing over with. 
What I am writing about is the thing that has attached itself to my right soul body shoulder and has some things like tentacles or fingers inserted in my back. Because of that I believe that I can no longer open my eyes when I meditate or have a OBE or dream as this thing is stopping me somehow from reaching levels of peace. Today just 5 minutes ago I was taking a day time nap and I went in to a OBE level, but instantly I felt it being attached and draining or filling me with bad stuff. And it HURTS so much I can feel my inner body parts being displaced inch by inch. Next time I sense it I will try to unleash myself of it and KILL IT brutally ... really BRUTALLY as I have begged it numerous times to let go of me and It refused. Now even Jesus's name doesn not scare it. SO I NEED TO KILL IT. Tell me how please..

figure MY art

So there comes a time when every person who likes to do drawing as me, has to stand infront of him self and see where he is going with it and what he needs to make it in to(living or hobby). That time has arrived for me now, today, here as I am within myself at this present moment. 

How it all started----

Well I dont remember much I just got born here at 1988 and then I was like 1 year old or 2 my mum says i was 1 year and 7 months when I drew my first drawing. I used pens and it was like a goal keeper with snickers on that had spikes on them and he had gloves and a helmet on. I was 1,7 years old WTF how would I know what those things look like and if they existed or not at all. So that is a mystery.
So moving on from that age to about 16 years old drew a lot every day and I became (good enough) this Andon that everyone knew and associated with drawing strange monsters, robots, demons and such. Now these demon drawings were all based on nightmares I used to have, but within my dream once I said STOP, I AM CONTROLING IT SO STOP IT NOW. And it did stop, so from that point on I could control my dreams IF i fell asleep on my Left shoulder. (The right for some reason makes me fall in to nightmares that I can not yet control..some info on that would be welcome yo..)
Then form 16 to 20 I said to my self that I want to become a famous artist, now I dont know if that is what I need to be. I mean yes I have been placed in this world here now with the knowledge of creating Art and drawing, and everyone says its a gift and I need to fulfill it and embrace it. So what do I do now. I draw when I am bored, I am not earning a living of it as I cant get employed anywhere (Bulgaria six when you look for a job). It seems IMPOSSIBLE to find a job here as an artist who draws more spiritual related and other world genres. So I went to study Animation in London and now it is summer vacation so I am here on these forums trying to understand my life. 
Art for me is a need to create, a need that has to be fulfilled and shown and be accepted by others. 
I feel like I have this thing in me that WANTS to be acknowledged by all and wants to suit all at once, but that thing is what I want to kill off and delete. If I can label it with a word or a name I can at least start to direct my will towards removing or changing it and BECOME ME.I used to have a time when my mum wont even like what I drew and she said it comes from Satan not GOD, I forgive my self that I had believed that statement for a while and that led me in to becoming closed and evil thinking person who was unable to express his love in any way. I rejected everything and felt sick and wicked. So now I can say "been there done that". And that is what stops me frm entering that state again, so thats good. :) Trough past mistakes I have developed defense mechanisms like that one in many aspects, so I dont fall in to the black hole again.
And Now WHAT do I not want but NEED for my self regarding ART. How does drawing build my character and benefit my well being. Why do I need it at all. First think pops in my mind is that I have lived with art so far and I feel it was much more that just my current 24 years on Earth. I feel that I am a part of a memory that has ART in its core and that is as old as existence it self. So cool I need art for that reason. So now How do I express it and not feel like I need to get accepted and when I dont get accepted, I should not feel guilty, unsatisfied, hateful, wicked at my self and my creation. But just the opposite, I should praise my gift and love it and cherish it and live by it.
I will just continue to draw and create, and not expect money to fall from the sky or get praised by all. I do have my fans and my good people that support me in all my creations. That makes me really happy and I feel like I have been hugged bu this bird like thing with warm feathers and its pulsating love in to my soul. Its warn soft and tender as a mothers first touching the babies they delivered to this planet. 

I love you all and I love my self a lot too. Let creation continue in its own, Dont stop or judge no one. Be able to forgive yourselves and others with a smile and tear in the eye. 

homeless guy asking for water

So I had some work to do in the center of town. I took a bus went over to the place to pick some luggage up, but it was closed. So I got a burger went to the town park and eat my food. Then I took a bus back home and got off the bus on my stop. Started walking home when I realised that my phone was missing. So I searched for 5 minutes around the stop but could not find it. A bit angry at my self i started walking towards my block again, when I heard a homeless guy saying:
-" Hey dude have you got some water on ya:)" 
He was smiling and sounding really happy. I saw he was standing in the shadows of a near by block to ceep cool from the heat (it was 37 degrees in Bulgaria that day). 
And I said to the man:
-"No sorry man I live far away from here( i Dont really)..

He said "No problem man have a nice day:

Then It struck me, that I was an asshole and not cared for a man in a real need of the One thing that we all NEED in order to continue living here.

So I went home its like 300 meters away from where the man was and I got a big bottle of fresh water form the sink and went back running towards the guy. He was still there and I just gave him the bottle and said here you are you need it more than me and I hope it is enough to defeat your thirst for now.
The bottle and said:
- " Oh, my GOD bless you young man I was really needing that water now. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. "
Then I said good bye to the homeless weird fellow (his teeth were really clean and white, and his voice just had that happiness inside) AND YET he is a homeless person...

So My mum called my number it turned out I dropped my phone in the bus back and I went to the buss stop to get it back again. 

I wonder if all that journey to get the package and lose my phone was created for me to see that homeless guy.
If so, then that guy has some strong will and attraction power :)

Never the less that thing happening made me think that people are cruel and not human anymore. To think that a homeless guy asks for water in a shop and they say NO. We deserve our extinction and I agree.

I dont know what to forgive my self first. That experience really makes me both sad and happy inside.

sexual demon beings ATTACK

OK WTF, am I really that sexually non-satisfied by normal human girls? That I am calling forth sucubus's to come to me and you know.... I feel really sick like I secretly want it to be like that or that I am making a HUGE mistake somewhere, whatever it is it is making me feel weird and I cant get on with my life lie I normally do. For example today I just took a nap at 15:00 and i had a dream even and then it merged in to this movement around me as I was just about to wake up  but I started to feel something attached to my back and touching me gently. And I was 100% awake but I could not go up or move, I felt like I was enjoying (her.IT) being there with me and it even replied to me asking( do you like me) she said YEAAASSss. Then I could only hear those hard breaths all around me like the bed was sucking me in to the grounds and I felt the sucucbus getting in to it and I tried to get out from my body so I can see what it looked  like at least. Then I asked are you a sucubus and it disappeared and I opened my eyes here.  SO WHAT NOW. Looking at videos or information I found DOES not help. I have to it and stop it. So should I do self forgiveness now. And what should I write????

day 2- I see that self forgiveness is the way now

OK so last night after I have watched more videos on the system demons, I said to myself that it is time to locate mine and really be specific on what I address so it hears me directly and feels my self forgiveness. That is what I did with not even a drop of suspicion in my self, that is probably the reason why it worked as it did. After 02am I went to bed and started thinking of what I have watched during the day(regarding self forgiveness videos and information on blogs). So i laid down on my back and stared at the cealing for a moment before I started to feel sleepy and went deeper and deeper in to my breathe. To the point where I actually said ITS TIME"" so HEY FEAR DEMON listen to what I have to say to my self and to you in that sense:
- I forgive my self that I have allowed my self fear to manifest in my mind and body that I have here, when I was afraid because of stories I have heard over the years, movies I have seen over the years, sounds I have heard over the years. That is my understanding now that I am the one to have been afraid of my minds creations, and of its projections during night times when I have experienced arousal caused by pictures, sounds, and memories I have not forgiven my self to believe and live in. 
I forgive my self Fear of loss also as when I had a girlfriend and I was constantly telling my self that I will loose her (and i did ) she dumped me for her ex and then she dumped him, so I see that i have caused this to happen trough my own allowance of fear of lost to manifest within my mind and body.


I forgive my self that i have allowed and accepted my self to after that loss experience a weakness moment of hate and regret that i have chosen the wrong  person and have deceived myself doing so. 


Now I see how one forgiveness leads to another and that way know that I can deconstruct my ego and find my errors to repair them as I find them. I see now that it is not about sins as sins dont really exist, be cause what we think about- we create - we live by- we manifest- then we see our error and try to go back about it and self forgiveness is the way to do it and self commitment also.


I commit my self to apply the tools of self forgiveness and self commitment as I go trough out my human life on this planet as the being Andon Hristov. 
I commit my self to apply self forgiveness when ever I see that there is need to apply self forgiveness, the need being caused by the understanding that I am following a system i have created and lived by so far, or when I see something is wrong and start to think why it seems that way and feels rotten. 


When I did the self forgiveness last night I was here and somewhat felt like I am dreaming. Once I forgave my self different acceptance of allowance of a system to have been manifesting within me, I felt like something came out of me( me head my chest my brain my arms and legs ). I felt relieved and I was living in the moment of clearance for a while, sort of being both in this 3D place that is my room and bed, and the other non-3D dimension. I felt I have really purified a single point of error. That was the proof I was looking for, so I could confirm that this entire thing is real and is working for the better.


I will continue to apply self forgiveness every night if I can and that way I will become what I have been when I have been put in this Earth in a first place.


Thank you for reading my little confession and discovery.

morning thoughts

the reason for me to have not yet started to really write my self as i should is that i do not fully
understand the concepts and meanings of the ideas portrayed here
i feel i must first get my self well familiar with all the words and meanings and then once i have that

understanding i can finally start to take on my own process and style of writing oneself out

My anxiousness is one more reason why i feel like screaming at the people " C'MON " change it already"
but i also realise that i am the one that has alowed them to use the planets resorces as they do, trough my out alowence of that idea i have changed the planet for the worst and i do understand and feel that deep within myself, i feel like i am responsible for the bad people on the planet and for every kill there is (animal or human)
I know I must have set a system to work in my mind trough those thoughts and information i have recieved via the internet or the news on TV but, I also have  a good feeling inside, God knows why and I am not even sure if he exists or me for that matter. How can we really exist the way we do. This has to be somekind of a Matrix realitty like a dream or a drug we got from alien lifeforms or whatever. It just feel real but when I was on the other side I felt MUCH MORE, AND THE REAL-ness WAS WOW. So now when I am living my life here on Earth it seems not good enough or not even real. I do experience pain and feelings But not as real as i had them when i crossedover
some time ago. So this is not real or is it just some one persons bad realitty projection oif ideas and test pf his own abilitty if he can make a better world than what we call GOD. Interesting dont you think. So until i learn to use forgiveness teh right way i wont write i that i forgive myself that i have ...... OK?
And at this point I just want to get ideas and systems out of my existence so I dont care about grammar, Sorry:)

day One

OK so Hello all, I have decided to write my self out and using this method I will hope to reach my true potential as cosmic force and find my true self as I do really feel lost at times.
I have no idea how to start and what to look at first. Should I start from day one or from today to day one going backwards and seeing how much I really actually remember from everyday so far. I will say this though, I do feel a bit awkward and excited doing this writing, one reason is i hate writing and i am not a good English grammar person, and the other reason is just excitement caused by the knowledge that I havent done this format of realisation ever before in my current life. There I am being distracted by the other internet windows opened (Face Book,YouTube,Skype). I know and I see what I have to change in my character and i spot my life patterns easily, but I have never before tried to change them for the better. And I think I dont understand your idea completely. Should I try and deconstruct my self completely and then rebuild only the parts i need and that are helping about creating a better world for all??? Or i should just do a self forgiveness scan of my systems and delete memories, fears, pains, doubts things like that (as i go and write every day)? So far for this single post I do see where I need to apply the tool of self forgiveness so I will now start to do so.


I forgive my self, that I have accepted and allowed my self to have felt guilty and embarassed only even by the thought to have been doing self forgiveness before.


I forgive my self, that I have accepted and allowed my self to have been letting my self to be led to inner hatred and confusion of thoughts caused by the constant distractions caused by different objects and people around me. I know that it is me who is actually letting them happen and i can stop my self in believing that they are there and making me feel nervous and tense.


I forgive my self, that I have accepted and allowed my self to have let inner pain enter my mind and thoughts during my creation processes and fear to manifest within my soul and being. 


I forgive my self, that I have accepted and allowed my self to ever doubt in my own potential, in my own words, in my own creation process as a human being, and as an artistic creator.


I forgive my self, that I have accepted and allowed my self to have been weak and selfish yesterday when I went out with my brother and a friend of ours, and when my friend was working out i felt like i wanted to have his stronger body which he has gained trough out 5 year period with hard work and consistency.

Andon's Journey to Life

I will use this page to start my inner journey towards my realisation of who I really am and what I am here for.

I know my spelling is bad, but I dont care about being perfect in this, I just feel that I really need to find my human errors as searching for my everyday patterns and eliminating any fear or doubt encounter using Self Forgiveness.

So may the journey begin.

What you see is what you get

Experimental animation

'Abstract Animation' explores the use of not figurative forms and movement. Synchronisation of images and sound, the meaning of Abstract timing and movement does not need a narrative or characters , uses rhythm and paces , explores different points of view, goes in to depth regarding the overall idea. Explores the states of a materialisation on screen. Morphs from one object or emotion in to another in a seamless way. Can draw our attention to both big and small forms at the same time. Imitates what the sound could look like. Exists in to a non-dimensional distorted space. Thinks outside the box. Turns the box in to an oval and implodes with emptiness. Leaving us wondering and filled with questions with no easy answer. It is complex in a simple way. It looks like letters build from numbers in an alphabetical order and reverse. The tempo in the animation is felt by our own heartbeat be cause it is often the same. It takes your mind out side of your body and shows you the other side or what it could be like. Gives you a new law to consider. Seeing an abstract piece is like diving in to the unknown and even once you are in side you still don't know if you will be back to the "real" world. You start to feel unsatisfied by the normal everyday things and you feel that something is missing. Then you let it go and unleash the chaos that has been embed in to you from the start. No holding back now you must chose here or there, where everything can happen even when you least expect it to. You can have as much control or totally let yourself to the flow of space energy and continue to go past the barriers we have set here ourselves. Experiments are the only thing leading to a real discovery or even the creation of something completely new and unknown so far. It has all been an experiment at first, and now it has been developed and perfected, but never forget it was on the drawing board and in pieces on boring objects and shapes. You combine this with that and something new appears, just some additional tweaks and it can even be operational. How can you know what a chocolate lemon tastes like if you don't make one. I feel that with Abstract animation not even the sky is a limit. It can go way past that physically visible distance easily and as fast as one second in to a given frame of a film. I much prefer to add some abnormal features to my backgrounds or even to the characters as it makes you see a new way of telling a story or showing an emotion. It is the best way for me to communicate an idea to the viewer. My dream has always been to be able to show to the normal person what I see in my nightmares and night projections. To take them on a journey to a place they never knew existed. I know it sounds cheesy, but that is just what it is, a real trip that people only get when they are on some hallucinogen drugs. Really it makes me feel pain to see so many closed minds, knowing what a human can do and achieve if he just lets loose and relaxes his body. Just leaving the mind scatter in all possible directions and gather memories of lost and long forgotten places. People are surprised of how time stops or slows down or speeds up. That's because there is no time, it is just an illusion a bar we set there not knowing how many things we loose while doing so. I don't blame no one, if I could I would probably do the same and someone would be writing this addressed to me. Never the less there is still a big percentage of open minded people who are doing what ever they are good at to infect as many as possible with the virus called ART. And this brings me to the point of actual Art of Animation, and Experimental in particular. Does it really have a deeper meaning or is it just what it looks to be. Is the creator of the animation acting like a messenger from another dimension, being brought here to shout us that we need to change? Or is he just a differently raised child of a different time, trying to earn a living? The questions just lead to more questions, what I know for sure is that Abstract Animation Art is a way of expressing your thoughts and desires with no words. It does not matter if the point doesn't get across, it matters that you as a creator felt the rush to do it and have done it. Importing stock from "there to here".

Selling it for a reasonable price and getting rich be cause of the reflections of your actions.

Annotated reference list.

Anime News Network, 2011-06-26,[online] Available at: http://www.animenewsnetwork.co.uk/press-release/2004-01-05/anime-at-the-alamo [Accessed on the 8-th January 2012]Information about anime screening dates at Alamo cinemas.1998-2012 Anime News Network

Buried Treasure, Oct 26th 2006 http://www.animenewsnetwork.co.uk/buried-treasure/2006-10-26 [Accessed on the 8-th January 2012] A great review on " Robot Carnival" by Justin Sevakis. Screenshots ©A.P.P.P. All rights reserved.

ANNCastm, Jan 15th 2010 http://www.animenewsnetwork.co.uk/anncast/2010-01-14 [Accessed on the 8-th January 2012] ANNCast takes a 2 hour long interview with Carl Macek, one of the main promoters of Steamline in 1980. by Zac Bertschy & Justin Sevakis

Research Portfolio:Robot Carnival by Katsuhiro Otomo

Research Portfolio:

Robot Carnival is a Japanese anime anthology film released in 1987. It consists of nine shorts by different directors, many of whom started out as animators with little to no directing experience. This film has gained a small cult following.

Each has a distinctive animation style and story from each director within a steampunk-like setting, as well as ranging from comedic to dramatic.

Directed by Atsuko Fukushima and Katsuhiro Otomo.

The opening takes place in a desert. A boy finds a small "coming soon" poster advertising the Robot Carnival, and becomes frightened and agitated. He warns the people in his village, most likely to escape, when a huge machine with many robots performing in niches on its exterior grinds its way right over the village. Once a magnificent traveling showcase, it is now a decayed, rusted, malfunctioning, engine of destruction.

Franken's Gears:

Directed by Koji Morimoto.

A crazy scientist tries to give life to his robot with lightning, just like Frankenstein. When it comes to life, the robot copies everything the scientist does. Overjoyed, the scientist dances with glee, trips, and falls. Seeing this, the robot dances, trips, and falls on the scientist, killing him.

Deprive:

Directed by Hidetoshi Omori.

This segment features a humanoid robot and an invasion from space.

Presence:

Directed by Yasuomi Umetsu.

This segment (featuring dialogue) tells the story of a man who has an obsession with a robot girl he has been secretly constructing in an attempt to compensate for the lack of any close relationship with his wife and family. The setting seems to be British and of the early twentieth century, but also suggests another planet or a future which has attempted to re-establish a former social structure. When the robot takes on a personality of her own, far beyond what the man had programmed, he smashes her in a fit of panic, and leaves his secret laboratory for what he believes is the last time. Twenty years later, the man has a vision of his robot appearing before him, but then blowing up before he can take her hand. He returns to his shed to find the robot still sitting smashed in a corner, just as she had been left years earlier. Another twenty years elapse, and the robot appears again before the man. This time, he takes her hand and walks into the distance with her, before vanishing in front of his shocked wife. This is the first short that contains intelligible dialogue (characters in Opening speak in gibberish), but little of it is actually spoken on-screen - all but a few lines are given in voice-over, or with the speaker's mouth obscured.

Star Light Angel:

Directed by Hiroyuki Kitazume.

A shōjo story, featuring teenage girls at a robot themed amusement park who are friends. One of the girls finds that her lover is now going out with her friend. Running away in tears she finds her way to a virtual-reality ride. Pleasant at first, her memory cause the ride to summon a giant laser breathing mecha. But one of the park's 'robots' finds himself in the role of knight in shining armor, and allowing her to let go of her darker emotions, and to move forward in her life. While at first confusing, this is deceptive, as many of the elements are logical in hindsight. The visual style of this segment was heavily influenced by the music video for A-Ha's "Take on Me."

Cloud:

Directed by Mao Lamdo.

This short features a robot walking through time, and the evolution of man. The backdrop is animated with clouds that depicts various events of the universe. Such as the modernization of man, to the self destruction of man. Most the events in the backdrops takes place from Rome to present day society. Eventually the same angel who cries for his immortality, makes him human towards the end.

A Tale of Two Robots—Chapter 3: Foreign Invasion:

Directed by Hiroyuki Kitakubo.

This is set in the nineteenth century and features two "giant robots" directed from within by a human crew. In the style of a movie serial of the sound era, a Westerner in his giant robot attempts to take over Japan, but is challenged by locals operating a "machine made for the parade" -- a Japanese giant robot. The style of this segment is somewhat reminiscent of a Japanese World War II-era propaganda film. Despite the title of this segment, there is no known prequel or sequel. The voice acting of this piece are a mix of English and Japanese with the Westerner speaking English and the Japanese speaking their language.

Nightmare:

Directed by Takashi Nakamura.

The city of Tokyo is overrun by its machines, as they all come alive for a night of revelry, with only a single, drunken human (Chicken Man) awake to witness it.

This features the recent Japanese myth that machines can grow by connecting onto other machines, regardless of the purposes for which they were designed.

Ending:

Directed by Atsuko Fukushima and Katsuhiro Otomo.

The Robot Carnival is stopped by a little hill in the desert. Unable to climb the sandy obstruction, the Carnival stalls at its base. As the sun sets over the traveling relic, flashback stills recall the grandeur of the Carnival at the peak of its existence—an unparalleled engine of mirth that brought timeless joy to the various cities it visited. At sunrise, we see the platform chug forward with a sudden burst of power and crest over the dune in its way. The final push proved to be too much for the aged contraption, and it finally goes to pieces in the desert. The bulk of the film's credits are then shown concluding with an epilogue.

Epilogue: Years later a man discovers an orb among the remains and brings it back to his family. It is a music box featuring a miniature robot ballerina. As it dances, the children applaud. The ballerina finishes its dance with a leap into the air and explodes, blowing up the shack where the family lived, leaving "END" in enormous letters lying in its place as the only survivor, the family's pet llama, struggles to regain its footing.

Here are some of my favourite parts from four of the segments composing the best scenes in my likening.

Robot Carnival Opening

Robot Carnival "Franken's Gears"

Robot Carnival -- Deprive

Presence

Cab Calloway St. James Infirmary by Fleischer

Another absolute master piece. This time an actual JAZZ STAR has been added as an ingredient to give to us the viewers an amazing show to watch. I love the animation method called rotoscoping that lets a person trace a already shot video source of something performing an action and draw on top of it, leading to a very realistic looking animated movement for the output. Rotoscoping was used here in order to give Fleisher Brother's Koko the Clown ghost morph character his unique realistic dance moves. And the voice actor for the character is non other than the great Cab Calloway (singing St. James Infirmary). He just managed to embed the spirit of the 30's in that song so well that once you hear it it does not matter if you like a different style of music, you just can not say NO to that sweet sounding blues.

silly symphony - the skeleton dance 1929

silly symphony - the skeleton dance 1929

When I first saw this thing it felt really scary and creepy, but if one tries to see it as a piece of art and it becomes clear that the use of sound and the ability to synchronise it that well to the video is a pure work of genius. At least for me it is be cause I have had the pleasure of working as a video DJ (Vj) a couple of years ago and to see where it came from is a real gift to me. Makes me want to watch it again and again to analyse it further and sink my teeth in to it. So now I see amazing morphings and crowd animated scenes in it and the use of loops had always seemed to me a bit weird, but it just gives the cartoon the mark of the 1929 quality.

You Tube is really a great place to search for inspiration when you need it. The reason I go to that site is that literally the entire Planet has been shown in all of its aspects with the use of different video formats. People love to share their videos that contain all kinds of emotions and states of the body and mind, and are interested how many people will find those shared materials useful and interesting (via LIKES). I personally use YT for searching a videos that show old and valuable animations and music videos. I am not really a fan of violent or really I don't like to waste my time with 100000 funny videos, so I am looking for ART and SCIENCE tags on there. The most recent ones mere a live musical performance from my favourite electronic music artist Aphex Twin. He greatly inspires me and gives me the will to want to create something new and unheard (in audio ways). As for video formats I enjoy watching Animation festival winners videos in HD. Some people really live in a different place and that makes me feel like I am not alone and gives me inner piece.

A research portfolio

The life of Donyo Donev

45 years in creating animation

Donyo Donev came t

From his teenager years he played at weddings and restaurants. People used to glue good money on his forehead, that's why Donyo needed to keep his head looking upwards. But while he played the accordion, his friends took all the girls he wanted to talk to.o light 78 years ago in Berkovitsa. His father was a railwayman. Donyo was an average student and most of his grades were D's and even F's were . Was not good at drawing or gymnastics or singing. He made a deal with his father that he will get good grades if his dad buys him an accordeon. So he did get on a brand of "Traviata" with a maximum of 32 bass.

№ 1 animator in Bulgaria maintained a sort of "house museum" where he collected different brands of accordions.

He had fun not only playing them but fixing then aswell. The man just had a huge weaknes

an 40 years Donev discovers with great pain that his "fools" are not really his property, but the Cinema Center's. The popular characters were born in a very funny way. The first scenario was Atanas Pavlov's. Then viewers themselves began to suggest stories, and Peter Slabakov gave aliases to the "Fools". s for this instrument. After more th

-"During the creation of one of the series which both fools incubate an egg, from which pops the third fool out, Slabakov exclaimed:" Mityo ... Vatyo ... "La

ter with a smile Petyo told me that my third hero was named .....Donyo.

"Fool № 1 of the republic" was a victim of street beatings three times. Some guys attacked him in front of the church "St. George" and broke his jaw. Few millimeters - and the impact was going to sent him to the other world. Then he got beat in the City Park. Finally sprayed with spray and miraculously did not get blind, but for some time one of his eyes was closed. On several occasions, thieves stole things from his apartment in Sofia. Hijacking 500 BGN and one of his briefcases, inside of wich the

​​Donyo Donev really hated frawd. During his time there were a lot of his fellow animators that gained credit using someone else's works as their own. So he became an agent in the DS named Mr. Toshev. With that name he signed 11 documents that led to the firing of those who got some gold out of other peo

ple's backs. For that agent Toshev was rewarded with a 60 BGN rase of salary and was known as "the deserving artist".re were only drawings, two leva and one lev paper bill. Not much really.

His first cartoon as an artist is "Hulled and Grushko" (1957), but with "Duet" (1961) he made ​​his debut as screenwriter and

director. He has worked as an artist in the "Evening News" (1954-1956), artist and director in the Department of cartoons in SIF (1956-1970) and the SAF "Sofia" (1970-1993), where he was the head of a creative team.

Working on the

animation series "Three Stooges" from 1970 to 1990. Donev is the main editor of the newspaper "Three Stooges" (1989-1997), and the "Four Fools" (1997) and the magazine "bang."

In 1998 he was an actor in the movie "Wagner."

As a cartoonist he was presented in many exhibitions in Bulgaria and abroad.

Donyo Donev was a professor at the NATFIZ animation accademy in Sofia and used to taught animation directing there.

Donyo Donev is an artist, writer and director of over 100 cartoons. Among the most popular ones are:

"Go back to Sorrento"

"Ekograma";

'Cause perduta ";

"Target";

"We called th

em and Kapuleti Montecchi";

"Serenade";

'Three Stooges' "Three Stooges - hunters" (1972);

"Three Stooges and the car" (1973);

"Three Stooges and the cow" (1974);

"Three Stooges - hunters";

"Three Stooges and the tree" (1977);

"Three fools and stupid" (1978);

"Three Stooges - athletes" (1979);

"Three Stooges - te

achers" (1980);

"Three Stooges - fishermen" (1982);

"Three Stooges in the restaurant" (1988);

"Three Stooges non-stop" (1990);

"Three fools in life and sport" (1993);

"Smart Village"

;

"Hamlet";

"Happy End";

"Joke";

"Diagnosis" (2000).

I personally had the extreme pleasure of not only seing him live, but talking to him about the path of the animator.

It hapened in the year of 2003 i think and i was a student in the National School for fine arts in Sofia Bulgaria then. So we had this drawing competition and i drew his 3 fools characters, not having the slightest idea that Mr. Donev was one of the jury. So the time for us came to stop drawing and we wai

ted for the jury to got rough each one of us and make a decision on a winner. Before i knew it Donyo was next to me and paprazi startew to take photos of him look

ing at my "stolen" idea. I was shaking and verry excited and afraid of what he might say to me about using his work as mine.

But my fears went away as soon as i saw him smiling and even starting to laugh. He said:

-"Boy, you have found the way of the Bulgarian animation at that age ?"

After that he t

In an interview Donyo Donev explained why he finds his 3 fools characters so interesting and unique.ook a photo with me and i was on the next day's newspaper next to the legend. I still have the page cut out somewhere at home and that memory really warms my heart and makes me go on with the path i have chosen.

"Self-irony is a

n important characteristic of the Bulgarian people, which rarely occurs in other nations, and I have developed it to its most clear and simple perfection. I am just the same fool as my painte

d characters. Because by being a bigger fool you can get rid of the real fools. If you show a fool that you are a bigger fool than him, you do is you tickle his pride and you manage to lose his attention. Fools love to look very smart and are very happy to make you a fool. Give them some fun and they will cease to annoy and bother you - you're so stupid in their eyes that they can safely leave you be- which is a real gift for you to be left alone with your own foolishness".

Self-irony is also a way to not go beyond your self. Many people, rising in their career or social status imagine that they are greater than others and that are special and deserve more. At such times, the abilit

y to see how stupid you are, helps to get your self back on the ground and in the reality as it is.

When Donyo joined the Academy of Fine Arts he had a band that used to play in pubs, weddings, christenings. He did not have time for his lectures and that drove him to be absences. He re-applied and entered the Academy for a second time. Elijah Beshkov once summoned him secretly in a corn

er: "Boy,choose one. Brush or accordion! Donyo suffered three days of dilemma - should he become a musician artist or a drawing artist?He started working in the" Evening News "as a cartoonist. After a month Todor Dinov, the father of Bulgarian animation visited the studio and showed him the art of making still images come to life. After that Donyo spent 45 years of his

life in the field of animation.

Sadly he died on

November 28, 2007 in Sofia.

Donio Donev- a life time in Bulgarian animation culture

Born on June 27, 1929 in Berkovitsa. Graduated "Graphic arts" at the National Art Academy in 1954.
Donio Donev has over 100 well known animated films that were aired over the world during his time, some of which are:ated "Graphical arts" at the National Art Academy in 1954
His first cartoons as an artist are "Gruh and Grushska" (1957), but with "Duet" (1961) he made ​​his debut as a screenwriter and director. He has worked as an artist in the "Evening News"(1954-1956), artist and director in the Department of cartoons in SIF (1956-1970) and the SAF "Sofia" (1970-1993), where is the head of creative team.
Working on the animation series "The Three Stooges" from 1970 to 1990 Donev is editor of the newspaper "Three Stooges" (1989-1997), and the "Four Fools" (1997) and the magazine "bang."
In 1998 debut as an actor in the movie "Wagner."
As a cartoonist is presented in many exhibitions in Bulgaria and abroad.
Donyo Donev was a professor at the National and taught animation directing there.
He died on November 28, 2007 in Sofia."Three Stooges"

Three Stooges and the cow" (1974);"Smart Village";

Pixel to Pencil- the uncanny valley

Pixel to Pencil

led by Magnus Moar


Uni hours are interesting and i always get to see something new and amazing. After the lectures i feel inspired and ready to continue my projects.
First thing i had no idea what it actually ment was the "Uncanny Valley".
Turns out it is really important to understand what it is, so once you do you can make your decision on purely animators point of view whether or not you want your characters to look photo real or stylised.
For me it is important for a model to be really appealing and have as much human features as possible, my style of drawing and modelling has always been going a bit towards the photo real look. Now on the other hand i see that that was one of my main problems why i havent been able to get people to like and appeal to my creations as i would have wanted them to. It is all because we humans can really easily tell when a model who is trying to look photo real is really not as real looking. We are used to seeing our kind and can tell the difference when something is even slightly off. That is why i think i will start creating a bit more stylised characters so they can be accepted as i would want them to be. A stylised character has a lot more appeal qualities as it is cute looking for one thing and may produce more simpler human looking movements.

In the end i finally found the source of my non-acceptance error and i think i will be able to reach the level of likeness i was after. Thanks to the knowledge of the Uncanny Valley.

Here is a video that explains what it is for video games too.

Dear diary, today i had a lot of fun in London. We were in drawing class and after that we went to central London to c a movie called PARANORMAL activity"" (WE IS someone who you wont find out who is ) so it is a horror movie and i got inspired to direct a horror movie based on one of my dreams(nightmares) so now i think i will go on and try for a movie director :D